Creative process

Have you've ever been in such the vein of creating that you lose all track of time, thought or even the desire to eat? Well, today that was me. It's been a while since I've had such a flow and that's why now I can be thankful for the cataylst that got me started. Hearing the sweet words, "we are disappointed!" Wonderful words to hear from parents however, this seem to be the kick in the butt I needed! I am no longer sitting around waiting for something to happen or for someone to notice me. I have this drive that I haven't had in a long time. Tenacity, motivation and determination to get me going in a direction even though I have no clue where it will lead nor do I know what I'm doing.

I can take no pride or be egotistical about having knowledge about this because like a child with brand new eyes and heart just filled with imagination and dreams---I know nothing and following my heart.

I've lost so much time thinking about stuff I want to do in a place of falsified anticipation and dared called it hope. The time of thinking and muttering and contemplating in the mind is over---our hearts are moving us in the very place we've been desiring to go! So let's take on the adventure excited about what is to come and what we will discover even more deeply on the inside of us that we haven't seen before!

By the way, here is one of the things I created today! 

Resistance

 When you come up against challenges that try to get you to doubt what's in your heart and to even discourage you on the journey you decide to take---comfort, familiarity and security. These words began to whisper in our ears to try to get us to cower in a cave of fear. To get us to  take the road that is most comfortable and doesn't cause much conflict, fuss, or a challenge.

I have personally come across that. Recently, I posted on Facebook how I was going to published a book that I have worked on for five years. Last minute, I decided to back out of it because I just didn't have any peace about it.  So what did I decide to do, go back to what was familiar. Looking up full-time jobs or part-time jobs working in a office building. And what am I facing right now? I am facing a serious flow of resistance telling me to go back to what I was doing in the first place. Pursing writing and creative arts. Taking myself seriously as an artist and writer. My heart is telling me to go in this direction, however, of course, the ugly face of not having financial security and lack comes up to try to keep me from moving in this direction. Hell, even people who you think would be your greatest supporter become one your naysayers or doubters to keep you in fear and back in the box of what is comfortable.

Last night, I discovered something. Negativity, harsh words, and challenging circumstances can be the catalyst of something so beautiful to be birth. I was awaken to the reality of just how BIG I am on the inside and all these external stuff doesn't change who I am. Through moments of discouragement-- I realize just how courageous, how powerful, how brilliant, how creative and just how strong I really am.  I could wallow in the words of doubt and fear and live as a victim to other people's stories and ideas of me. OR I can recognize that this is an opportunity to MOVE FORWARD, even when it looks like baby steps.

All steps we take toward something we are passionate about...even when we are afraid, uncertain, and not confident is monumental. Do not dismiss anything you do. You are moving and that's beautiful. It takes a lot of courage to do what's in your heart.

Nothing is out of reach!

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